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Aug 6, 2014

love is an amazing thing. maybe the best of things. and if its not amazing thing for you, maybe you just haven’t find your love. 😏

Aug 1, 2014

Sorry Lord, for I know I deserve this misery.

I thought it was okay to kiss the boy who made my stomach feel on fire when he looked at me, but I didn’t realize that one day that fire would turn to ice and I’d be crying on the bathroom floor with blood covering my clothes screaming about how he kissed the girl he swore he was only friends with.
I burned myself on you (via jessielou24)
Jul 11, 2014 / 1,342 notes
Forget about him. You are losing sleep over a boy who is sleeping well, with a whole other girl on his mind. You are sitting there staring at your phone waiting for a text or call from this boy who is probably already on the phone with that other girl. You are posting or reblogging sad posts on how hurt you are and you miss him.. hoping he sees it but he’s busy worrying about the other girl and her posts. You are crying over that dude but he’s making another girl smile right now. If you aren’t the girl hes giving his all to, then he shouldn’t be the boy you are still dedicated to. Truly that’s just how it is.
Jul 11, 2014 / 3,696 notes
I’m doing my best
To be okay
But it doesn’t always work.
Jul 11, 2014 / 2,006 notes
Jul 11, 2014 / 6,137 notes

(via danger)

rise-above-this-hell:

♡ Sad black and white blog ♡
Jul 11, 2014 / 285 notes

rise-above-this-hell:

♡ Sad black and white blog ♡

Jul 5, 2014

jealousy is the worst kind of hate.

Jul 1, 2014 / 95,155 notes

spangefucker:

"in case of fire use stairs" that’s ridiculous.  how the FUCK am i supposed to put this fire out with these stairs

(via le-petite-bouton)

Jul 1, 2014 / 290,242 notes

iguanamouth:

not knowing how to spell a word but playing it off and mispelling it really bad so it looks intentional like “hey when are you meeting us at the restetrauretant”

(via le-petite-bouton)

this would be your view if you’re on him. you’re welcome.
Jul 1, 2014 / 3 notes

this would be your view if you’re on him. you’re welcome.

Jun 30, 2014 / 292,531 notes
Jun 30, 2014

i have to admit, you were the best part of my life and it’s dull without you.

Jun 27, 2014 / 1 note

I saw him today. I didn’t know how to react. His friends saw me, I’m pretty sure he saw me too. I didn’t say anything to him nor did I look at his face. I simply know he was there. His presence was so overwhelming, I didn’t feel my legs. He wasn’t there for long though. I should’ve said something. God knows when I will be seeing him again. After that incident, I realized that I was quite and up until now, I still don’t know what to feel.

Jun 25, 2014 / 1 note

I feel like adding a new thing in my routine. I will write everyday, here. Well mostly of my feelings. I think I won’t bother anyone so much since this is tumblr and you could find 1000 feelings in one post.

So yeah.

Today my feeling is indescribable in one word. Unless the word is ‘shit’. I woke up not knowing how to feel. I am not sad, its definitely worse than that. I do not cry as much and this is abnormal for me. I guess I’m not breaking down because I’m currently hanging on to the past? He has always been away for me, but even so, we were still together. Now its like what it used to be but there’s no way for me to communicate with him. Thus, enabling me to be stuck in a space between expectation/past and reality.

I want to talk to him really badly. What am I supposed to say anyway? I just want to say “Hi” and ask him how he has been doing because I care and what he is up to and where is he right now but I think if I start the conversation will be like, “Hey, I just want to say that I think about you like every fucking second, I want you to tell me that you still love me, and you miss me too”. Yeah, that won’t be creepy. I don’t not want him to come back as much as I want him to come back, if that makes any sense. I don’t want him to take his heart to some place it won’t go. I guess if I truly care for him, I should leave him alone.

His last seen is: 11.05 this morning, and my last seen is: when I checked his last seen? 

I just want to stop being confused of my own feelings and just be happy you know. I think I’ve been doing a good job in social media like twitter and facebook and other stuff. This post is the evidence of my need to blurt out my feelings. I want to be aware that despite all of these shitty feelings I’m feeling, there is someone out there feeling shittier than me, and I do not want to be self-centered and tell anyone my stupid fucking problems that I should be able to settle myself to anyone.

Maybe I just need time to move on. Really cannot wait to move to a new house and decorate my new room. I wanna start painting. And practise all the other things, hopefully those little things that I planned will take my mind off him, I couldn’t stand it any longer.